2012: I am never going to get over my first crush. I’m going to die alone
2013: I’m basically an American since I just moved here! But wait. we have to do our own laundry? there are no maids?!?! F**k me!!
2014: Wait, does everyone think I came from the slums because of Slumdog Millionaire? Is this all they know??
2015: OH NO! Who are these people and how am I going to make friends!!!
2016: 4 AP classes?! S**t! I guess I am gonna have to graduate a year later!
2017: I can’t even walk straight on the floor, forget trying not to trip on the stage while I collect my diploma
2018: There is ABSOLUTELY no way I’m going to work 30 works a week AND pass my class with flying colors.
Present: There is nothing exciting in my life. I am going to die alone.
A never-ending cycle of obstacles. This is just a glimpse into my journal entries dating back from 6 years ago. I thought I can never get myself to do dishes, laundry and other domestic normal individual is required to know. Well, here I am.
We think every obstacle is the end of the world. I mean… At least I do. I like things planned out and expect them to run really smooth. I led myself to believe that EVERYTHING is in our control if you want it to be. But it’s not true. That is the greatest myth of all the myths I have heard. You can control any situation you want, but if it is MEANT to happen, it will. I mentioned this several times and believe in it so deeply that “Everything happens for a reason. Trust the process. God is rooting for you!“
I’d like to believe that God is in a great mood to test us, wanting to see if we truly deserve something we badly want. He then throws some of his most powerful curveballs along the way to test if you get through them. Similar to a job interview where the interviewer tests the interviewee how badly they want the job, ask them some difficult questions and if still surviving they pretty much got that job!
These obstacles test me mentally more than anything else to see if it’s worth fighting for. and when I recognize myself debating to give up, I IMMEDIATELY get up and place my hands to the sides of my waist, my legs wide apart and stand chest up. Just like the Superman pose. Close your eyes and BREATHE. Deep inhales and exhales. Soak in the surroundings.
still with me? ok good. hear me out… before you contemplate reading this crazy women post any further.
This is an example of power posing. When posing as such, you are telling your mind, body, and, the soul that “I am a hero and I am ready to conquer WHATEVER comes my way” You are so ready that you feel that rush in you. Trust me it works!
ok yeah. people look at me crazy when I do this before an exam or in a public surrounding but it WORKS! so who cares BRUH!
P.S~ also. There are TONS of articles on it online, many TED talks as well. Trust me. I’m a reliable source. My English classes in the past have taught me well to dig up sourceful information.
Doing something as simple (Ok, you’ll get used to it) as a superman pose can help me move further in my decision-making process and that’s a start! Hey! I get it. Sometimes you weigh in the pros and cons and you just want to give up because it is the best for everyone around you. And that is absolutely OK to do so. Not all battles are won and definitely, not all are lost. But that in NO MEANS I am saying you to go by the list or even if ‘its better for everyone else’. YOU come first. YOUR happiness should top that damn list. Heres to hoping that we will all make wiser and healthier choices for our mental health.